Expecting others to read your mind is delusional. But... But... I... I..."It's not empty words I'm after. There was something else I desired all along. Not mutual understanding, friendship, companionship, or anything of the sort. I don't care about being understood. I simply wish to understand. Understand, know, and rest easy in that knowledge-- gain some peace of mind. Wanting to know people inside-out because being in the dark terrifies me is an awfully self-indulgement, egoistic, and arrogant wish. It's downright despicable and disgusting. Having a desire like that makes me sick to the stomach! But if it's at all possible to share that desire-- if it's possible to have a relationship where you're free to burden one another with that repulsive self-gratification...I know that it's out of the question! I know that it's out of my reach! Even so!" Even so, I... I want something genuine.
It's impossible not to hurt others. Whether they're aware of it or not, people hurt others just by existing. The d it when they're alive, and they keep doing it long after they're dead. They do it by getting involved with them, and they might do it if they try not to get involved, too. But if it's someone you don't care about you won't even notice that you're hurting them. What's important is being aware of the fact. When you feel your hurting somebody, it means you care about them. That's what holding people dear is all about. It means your prepared to hurt them.