Hi everyone Hikkikomori here. Umm... That is all, thank you for bearing with me. And please take care of me from now on.

MATTE! Would I still count? ...

My greatest fear is to stop being afraid of life. It makes things to become numb and pointless as contradictory as it sounds, fear makes thing more interesting. To people who has thought about this kind of thing a lot this is totally real. I'm basically not afraid of life and between the suckish hours in school, my broken laptop, my unread reading list and among many others i totally think about life, death, social strata, love, relationships, and my chuniibyou as a totally intelligent person which I AM, not. Ahh, life is totally boring. Pointless, look we live to learn, slave to earn, beg to...

Yeah, just this week I dreamed that I woke up and reviewed my notes in the middle of the night but i was actually asleep. I always tell my dorm mates what I dream about, a one time it went like: I woke up and told them about it then I woke up then I asked them about it then it wasn't real after all and my friend says INCEPTION. Is it inception? ZakuroToshino I wrote about the MC Donald part already right? I was actually always always with the person that I like all the time. -> An example of the id at work.

Hey I took Pirondi's suggestion, but I read the novel translation instead. I haven't finished it yet but there were lots of countries or chapters omitted from the anime version. Still it was great.

Now that you mention it, I guess it is. Your quote is very relatable, it feels as if I am yearning for an ideal like that. No, that one day I would like to hear those words come from my own heart. Though, what he is referring to by pointing to his heart is sort of abstract.

Just write your favorite anime personality and (if you want) write why? Oh and share your favorite quote of that kind of anime character. IF it's too much of a bother don't write a quote. I can only read/alter/reply to this during weekends. Do you get my drift? Anyway, bye. (for now)

Never watched "Bungaku Shoujo Memoir" but I've read it's light novel origin, try it if you've been wanting more book-girl media.

I can very much relate to you, Ichi. But it's not that I am alone, I can't say that. Although I sometimes think maybe I would be better off that way. Cause now I'm not alone, but I still feel alone. Basically I do have friends -ahem- acquaintances and friends that usually makes me feel alone or alienated. I'm ab-normal just because I have a different way of thinking? They are just too shallow minded. And I am a bit narcissistic.I don't talk a lot especially gossip, and most of the time the 'normal' are gossiping.And I think it's not just about how many chords there are in a rope, but also, and...

A highly trained loner is once bitten twice shy.I'm sorry I can't relate much but I think I have Klein-Levin Syndrome. But that's just because I wish I have Klein-Levin Syndrome but I don't have it....

But in reality, the laughing narrator is the real protagonist of the story and the (masochistic) little guy is the real narrator of the story.

Example 1: Person A and person B have bonds of friendship. Then one of them betrays the other. Example 2: Person A and person B are neutral (acquaintances). A expects B to do something. B did not do the action. Example 3: Person A and person B are best of friends. A and B agreed to do something. One fails the action. Example 4:REALITY. Where everything is on a case to case basis. And it all depends upon your way of thinking. Which is it? Being betrayed or betraying?

I always have this nightmare that I'm in an old abandoned building, we're locked in and we fight the Mc donald's gang. But they're realistic, like cosplayers. And every time I dream something with Ronald Mc donald in it, it's like a connected series. And the weird part is I have deja vu all the time. ...

I think what pirondi meant by that, was that it would be useful if everyone could feel the pain they inflict on others. Which would prevent them from doing it in the first place. And most people do that, but only with people that they share the same blood with and then others... well they hurt them. Crowds wouldn't be a problem, I think, since you don't feel what you don't focus on. I doubt you would focus on the whole crowd all at once. ...

Well, I suppose that if you do like somethings better than other things then that would make you decisions slightly biased, though not in such a way that justice will not be served. Or if you've gone psycho for your love on that special something then you will bend justice and try to bend time and space to that something's benefit. ...

Freud says that it is the outlet of the unconscious or the id. If it's too personal, you re not obliged.

Really? You would be able to kill someone without any hesitation? Even if you knew that is for saving 10 more people, are you really capable of that? And what if the sum of all the great things that one person would of done would have been greater than the sum of those ten?This isn't actually related but.......

why was i born? why am i still alive? theirs only one answer, im alive because im needed. one day, when my purpose of existence will be fulfilled, i will die....

There are too much of a lot of things that need changing so instead I want it (the world) to change by itself, if it does without even trying to, then it will somehow change back to how bad it is, if not, then worse. ...

I don't really have a favorite favorite but I like this one it carries much hope, but it has too much idealism that hoping in it feels like a lie. It will be a new world... A world of truth, not lies. Ironically it is against lies, but it feels like a lie. Because it is covered in too much idealism and little realismor it could just be my pessimism.