Every day, the words cross my mind. "If I had done this back then..." but they don't take the sincere form of regret. The words are just an excuse that come to my mind then disappear.
When I get bigger, big enough to go somewhere by myself, I want to go to a land that’s far away.
I want to go to a faraway island. I want to go to an island that has no people. I want to go to an island that has no pain or sadness.
There are no adults, children, classmates, teachers or my mom on that island.
On that island, I can climb a tree when I want to climb, swim in the sea when I want to swim, and sleep when I want to sleep.
In the island, I think about the town that I left behind. Kids go to school, as if nothing has changed.
Adults go to the office, as if nothing has changed. Mom eats, as if nothing has changed.
When I think about the town without me, I feel a sense of relief. I want to go far, far away.
Thinking it's your fault after the fact is just pointless.
To get what you want, you put up with something, make an effort, learn a skill, and inspire yourself. Is that how it is with Hinazuki too? Right now... I can tell she's enduring something. Just the opposite of me, she is pretending to be indifferent. She pretends to feel nothing, but a 10 year old girl isn't that strong.
While I'm performing it feels like it'll become real somewhere along the line.
The essence of good deeds and evil is the same. They're both no more than a person's actions to make up for a defect in themselves.
"Believing in someone." That's a weird phrase, isn't it? After all, if you truly believed in a person, you wouldn't need to say, "I believe you." It's like saying, "I believe in air." I don't mean to say that "believing in something" is like a lie. "Believing" is really a term of hope of wanting to believe. The future is always blank. Only your willpower can leave footsteps there.